Next hour
Going week at the knees
Eager to please
All an act
Can’t be exact
In pinpointing
The distorting
Mix of layers
Definite players
In some game
All quite strange
Not aware
Acutely care
Of what happens
Doesn’t matter
All irresponsible
Dwindling into a coma
A loner
When in the crowd
Been spared
The injustice of a repeat performance
Declared insubordinate
Not impressed
Have confessed
Guilt on many levels
Have had troubles
In listening
To the people administering
Harmful doctrine
Washed clean
By colorful relationships
Cant slip
Into a decline any further
Love and nurture
The beautiful gift
Have to lift
Head to the stars
All so large
Oddly quiet
Concealed in private
What lies?
The playful things
That vanishes
Work collaborative
In affections
Reload to perfection
Greatly lengthy
Got to be fit mentally

Not over
Beginning to see the worth
Head first
To grief
Fell to pieces
Upon hearing
The sequencing
Of events
Not meant
To ever desert
Will revert
To drunken mess
Such stress
Will then not exist
Hit and miss
Any learning curve
Lost out to nerves

Steps
Bouncing into tiny boxes
Make crosses
To ensure a free ride
No pride
Will sacrifice much more
To be sure
Of a willing partner
In the chart
Mapped heart
With warm contours
No pause
For prayers or thanks
Going blank
When asked for account
Of evenings proceedings
Nightmares teeming
Into a huge blur
Cant care
This delusional anxiety
Most rightfully
Exerting so much energy
In memory
Of the departed
Widely planted
The seed of disturbance
Will surface
On the other side
Show the guide
To the front
Being blunt
About worst fears
Coming to tears
In some distraught fashion
Mind crashing
In a sudden wreck
Couldn’t detect
The vibes any longer
Coming back stronger
Missing forever
The protector
Sweeps into action
No contradictions
In real terms
History burns
Up into a blue flame
Main games
Mean nothing
Ideas colleting
Getting suspicious
This heady condition contagious

Ill
Loading up the poison
So frightening
To disappear
Should revere
Sever warnings
Now broadening
A disabled identity
Not reliability
Out in the field
Layers peeled
Back to the bone
Going home
To nurse wounds
Worked into a zone